i shall let the pics do the talking =) too lazy to type.
























hows my long hair? LOL

i realised whats mine in the past is no longer mine anymore. it belongs to another person already. how pain it is, i think i will be able to make it. i'm fine, dun worry.

i thought it through. no point holding on to something that i know right now at this moment, there will only be empty hopes. as you said, only time will tell.

i will be fine like before. i really hope i can make it through. i'm tired of missing you already. the times we spent will always remain in my heart. i will try not to miss you so much de.



anyway, i'm on MC today. sick. haiz

3rd day of attachment, i'm feeling tired. becoz i haven been sleeping well.

job is fine. beginning to find a little interest in it. well, will i stick to an office job after i graduate?

stay tune. LOL

am i feeling sad now? or i had drank a bit too much earlier on?

its saturday today! 2 more days and i will be starting my wonderful attachment. great isnt it? i haven been working for a very long time already. i wonder will i be able to cope ma. LOL

oh well, a few friends' birthdays next week. and first time ever, i planned something for a friend. i hope she will be surprised and be happy forever and most importantly, LOVE ME!! WAHAHAHAHA.

i'm still very tired. no idea why i woke up so early. going out later with mum and bro for his bursary and probably do some last min shopping for tops for my attachment. because they need smart casual as dress code. tell me, smart casual definition is what? damn. i had a hard time finding out. but anyway, for the 1st 2 days i'm working, i gonna wear nicer a bit than usual. why leh? becoz my ger's birthday ma. bring her out for some surprises. LOL



i'm more excited than her now sia. cant wait. haha.



alright, here comes the most important part of my entry. guess for some of you had already seen the "now" me. as in my looks. my hair! LOL

i got long hair now. long long hair. i had been keeping my hair short for the last few years and now finally, i can play with my hair le. LOL. smell my hair. cuddle my hair. sayang my hair. LOL i am just so happy! i pampered myself a lot these days. so happy! i wanna be pretty pretty even though i still fat la. but i dun care!!! i'm vain vain vain!!! LOL

to prove my hair is long, i took one and only pic few days ago.




i took this pic when i just showered. LOL. finally!!! nice a not? people who saw le, looks weird a not? fake a not the hair? i need comments!! a lot a lot of comments!!! LOL

i dread pimples. ROARS!!!

i'm so tired after walking so much. legs so weak now. and i woke up at 7am today. i wonder why. LOL

preparing for me attachment this coming monday. for those who dunno yet. i'm having attachment for 3 months. 25th Sept to 22 Dec. freaking 3 months!! let me die!!! but nvm. gain experience loh. hehe

my attachment is at Aspirant Technologies Pte Ltd. located at high street plaza. near city hall, 2 buildings away from Funan. detailed enough? haha. come find me for lunch or whatsoever ya? LOL


i think my bed needs me now. i am so tired. eyes closing. good night all. tml's another long day for me.

why do i feel so pain when i saw her pic in ur msn?

why do my tears fall without me knowing it?

why is my heart bleeding?

why are you so cruel?

i acted as if nothing happens when i know deep in my heart i'm hurting badly.

i miss you.



let time heal me fast. i dun wanna be in the pit forever.

i tot after i come back from this trip i will feel better.



but i guess i am not.


on a happier note, i pampered myself during the trip. it will be a total surprise for everyone. LOL dun be shock when u all see me ok? hehe







































































people do u all miss this? damn. i missed it a lot. and i ate a lot this time. LOL fat fat me!

wont be in spore for the next 3 days. so miss me people!

in order not to let u all miss me too much. i shall post my cute pic.



miss me de hua, kiss ur monitor ok? LOL

was sad for the past few days. i hope i can get back on my feet soon.

my day today ended quite well. happy. why?

anonymous gave me flowers

muacks!

and guess wat? i pampered my 2 thumb nails today.





i hope i will be happy always.

i thought it through already. time will heal eventually. i will let go. i wont let my tears out anymore.

i felt my heart being stabbed. this pain is so hurting. i cant smile. heartache. i never expect such stuff to happen. how am i going to heal? tell me what to do. i got no mood for anything anymore.

i will learn to let go. i know i can do it de!

Chua Hui Fen JIA YOU!

i'm so lazy to blog about my stuff these days.

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people changed isn't it? will i change too when i'm in the working society? will i ignore my own friends after i start my working life? i wonder...

something is not right inside me. my heart is crying. i felt pain.

i guess i am hurting inside.

i am feeling not good. sad.

what have i done to deserve all these? i'm not PMS-ing.

let me go. i am tired.

i went marina square yesterday to squeeze with many many many Kwon Sang Woo's fans. the crowd was horrible. many many crazy people including myself. LOL it was amazing. especially those aunties. they are much more crazier fans than us the younger ones. brought stool and stood on it. omg! just crazy is the word to describe them. LOL

i didnt manage to take any pics. becoz my view wasn't very good. only manage to video down a few parts. quite disappointing actually. but i managed to see his real person can le. so long never squeeze with so so so many people. feeling was great. he is just so handsome. i am in love with him! he really really very good looking loh. i can't imagine him standing beside me, i think i will just faint immediately if that ever happens. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! i'm still in the state of "siao-ness". pardon me please.

i just can't resist him!!!

once again, i am deeply in love with Kwon Sang Woo!!! LOL my yan lei wang zi!! weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

aint kwon sang woo handsome? my jjiang... ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!

i am in love with him!!!

things wouldn't be the same if it wasn't then.

we don't hate you. neither do we dislike you. it's just your actions and the way you talk pissed people off. you know? not just me alone but many others. we hinted many times. you didnt get it. so fine. it takes a lot of hands to clap in a friendship. who is so dumb enough to ruin this friendship? we are all young adults already, we don't want stuff like "i don't friend you already!" we are old enough to know what we are doing. you don't have to be sad about all these stuff. in fact, you should think about how you must change in order to be a better person. i am not saying you are bad. but just change a little to be better. maybe think carefully before you talk to others so that it will minus the hurt you caused or maybe the misunderstandings. you are good friend no doubt. no one wanna let this friendship be gone. you know? i might have sound harsh the previous entry but at least, i did say something out to describe how i feel. just now how you had mentioned in your blog saying how sad you are, am i right to say that?

if you really know who i am talking about and you know who you are, tag my blog. let's all forgive and forget and start afresh. because we were once close friends too. =)

read someone's blog. i realised i was very childish when i was younger. did stupid stuff. in fact, many. that was then. *sigh*

i think i screwed up the interview for my attachment over the phone!

i am sad!!