i will be starting work on Monday 2nd April at Tuas.

8.30am - 5.30pm from monday to friday and alternate saturdays from 8.30am to 1pm.

in fact, i dunno whether i am happy or not. i hope i didnt make the wrong choice at the end of the day.

new start = new look = new Fenz

i'm still in a dilemma. what should i do? or what should i choose? arggghhhhhhhhh

sometimes i wonder what's life?


sigh

i was showering happily just now when suddenly this freaking lizard came out from nowhere and scare the hell out of me.

i'm never afraid of anything but lizards and moths. dun ask me why. they just freak me out.

yesterday was a job hunting day in tuas for me. i had never travelled tuas so much before in my entire life. yesterday was one such experience that i guess it will stay in my mind for quite some time.

sometimes i'm not frustrated with "her"... haiz... i dunno what to say... my words may seem blunt at times but i dun mean it. my tone at times doesnt sound nice but i seriously dun mean anything... sometimes when i'm out for too long, when i got home, i just wanna rest and my ears to be peace. not i dun wanna talk to you. i know u are still sad but i really dun wish to keep seeing u crying all the time.

alright. whatever.

tml is a decision making day for me.

job hunting shall end soon...

welcome to a new journey in your life, CHUA HUI FEN!!!

here i am to blog liao.

so what shall i blog about? let me think...

alright. i went tomb sweeping yesterday. woke up at 5 in the morning when the previous night i was out and only went to sleep at 1am.

walking up the slope to my grandpa's tomb, it was scary. it was only 6.30am and the sky is still dark. my relatives and me could hardly see the path we were walking and it was raining heavily the night before. roads will slippery so was my shoes. but still, we managed to get to our destination and got our stuff done.

next was to my grandma's tomb. it was alright. fast and furious. LOL

and final destination was to my uncle's which was located at CCK columbrium. there is where my dad "located" too. as usual, mum cried. i expected it though. its still hard for her to accept. seeing my mum crying, brought tears to my eyes. the moment i saw my dad's picture there, i had to accept that i haven seen my dad for a very long time.

its going to be another year of my birthday. and so is my dad's death anniversary too. time indeed flies. my one and only 21st birthday and my dad is not around to celebrate with me. 1st birthday without dad around. 爸爸，我好想你!

went to watch "the hearty paws" with emily bird and gang at cineleisure on saturday. 1st movie which actually let my tears fell. incredible. LOL after which, we walked around aimless in orchard. horrible.

oh ya, i asked my cousin yesterday about jobs and he was fast. he managed to help me get an interview in just a day. i only asked him yesterday you know? haha. but i'm not sure if i will get it. simply because i got no confidence anymore especially after the last interview.

sigh.

it had been a long entry isnt it?

as requested. i am here to update my blog.

for more post. please tuna in again soon.

i mean it. real soon!

oh ya, i got 2 friends who just lost a friend today.

but i am happy for them! LOL

being rich doesnt mean anything.

i wont be around for the bext 3 days.


Emily's 21st birthday chalet.


hope she will enjoy herself.



Emily, 17th itself i will be at the chalet so i cant come online to blog. so i here wish u happy birthday in advance hor?

known you for almost 8 or 9 years le. changed alot. still as pretty as before. but not as cute as me. LOL. finally 21 years old le. i hope u will like our presents wor.

PS: i go choose your present also loh!!! but i nv tell u nia. LOL

Anyway, HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY GER!!

MUACKS

finally i'm graduated. not including my release of results day and my graduation ceremony.

it's my last day of school today. a mixture of feelings in fact.



i'm happy because i dun have to travel that long journey to the east side of singapore again yet on the other hand, i'm sad because these 2 years i had known a number of good friends in my ITE. after today, i dunno when i will see them again. perhaps during our graduation ceremony day. which falls on 24th May.



i hope everyone had enjoyed their times in ITE though there are nasty times which happened throughout our school days. but let bygones be bygones ya?


last but not least, i miss my class PM0504K 2005! and i miss Mr Paulo Quizora!

mum told me she will allow me to renovate my room as soon as dad's 1st year anniversary is over.
now i cant wait for it!

i'm not being an infilial daughter here, just that i am really very excited about it.

you know? those ikea shopping. omg!!! i can go with my friends and get ideas from them!!

its like a dream come true for me. so now what i'm going to do is to jump on my bed everyday, to break it and then change to a smaller bed. as u all know that my bed is a queen size bed and i need more space in my room. because mahjong is my life! hurhurhur.

i just finished watching a HK drama called "when rules comes loose" 识法代言人. its a freaking nice show! must watch ok?

任何一段爱情虽然会结束，但是它不会过去也不会被代替，因为每一段爱情都是独一无二的经验。

because of you, i learnt not to shed tears anymore.

IT show was freaking crowded earlier on. any bigger movements i made, i will definitely hit someone on his/her face. as usual, i went there to see the crowd. haha. bought a harddisk 60gb at $99. brand Maxtor. finally i can save many korean dramas le. yeah! cheers!

actually my life had been rather dull these days. dun ask me why. i anti social de. hurhurhur and Emily, you see, not i dun wan update vday pics leh... just that i received none of it from michelle. so i cant post any of my cute pics leh. i know u miss seeing my cute face.

exam this wednesday and i am still slacking. haha.

i focus more on my job hunting than my studies in fact. i sent out a few resumes but to no avail yet. i doubt i got any chances loh. my resume isnt as great as anyone's. just a few sentences here and there and there are a lot of mistakes in it. sigh. i wonder how am i suppose to survive with this kind of resume. totally sucks loh.

sleepless nights because of all these problems. i got no intention to look for great jobs with high pay or in MNCs companies, i just wan a stable job, provide my mum comfortablely thats all. but it seems so far away from me now.

perhaps being in an ITE is really hard to get a job ba. i'm just a higher nitec certificate holder after all.

my blog is empty.

it's horrible when you can't get enough sleep for so many nights and your whole body is aching because you played too much. this is how i am feeling for so many days. i had partied too much with my friends. terrible me!

so chinese new year is over and i am going to mug for exams. why choose hardworking now? basically mu hands-on sucks and i gonna work hard for the written paper. but say so nia, i always had no much determination on studies. i'm not those studious type of person. its so NOT me if i work too hard for an exam. LOL

had fun throughout this chinese new year, beyond my expectation because i thought i can't celebrate it much with family yet i did it with all my friends. gathering here and there. gambling, chatting, steamboating, gossipping, wandering around, clubbing and etc. omg! its god damn fun! and god knows i played mahjong for freaking 13 days straight since the day before chinese new year's eve. aint i great? now i'm still addicted to mahjong no doubt. no phobia loh for me! power right? wahahahaha!





i'm still a mahjong freak after chinese new year!





i'm lazy to upload pics leh.









so prettyyyyyyyyyyyyy!

TOTO 10 million tonight!!!

stay tune for the results!