*cheers*
we are good friends always. =)
its going to be end of week soon!!! wooohooo!! its chinese new year next week and i cant wait for the second day of new year for all my friends to come visiting my place!!! omg!!!!
my mum bought 2 more new clothings and a pair of heels for me yesterday. haha! i got the nicest mum on earth!! heez...
but...
one bad thing...
my ankle is still giving me problem... =( it hurts when i walk. i dunno what happen...
curious? LOL
one very obvious hint for you... heez...
obvious enough? haha..
yes yes!!! its my long awaited watch display!!!!!!! i'm a happy girl now! hahahahahahhaahhaha!
anyway, misfortune things had been happening to me recently.
first my nose was giving me problems. the the sudden outbreak of pimples on my face occurred. and now my ankle.
my ankle had been giving me problems for days and it will cause me an unbearable pain that i had to stop walking for a while to ease the pain. finally, before i went to work today, i went to see a chinese sinseh. he said my joint inside my ankle there was swollen badly. thats why my pain lasted for quite a few days. he rubbed my ankle and i almost cried out. it was so freaking pain... can you imagine i was grabbing the side of the doc's table, biting my lips, enduring the pain? omg! its just so painful. and now my ankle is wrapped like a pig's trotters. =.="
i hope it will be healed soon, if not next week i gonna go see the sinseh again which i dun wan to. it hurts!!!! =(
hmmm. just some random thoughts below. nothing to do with my emotions or whatsoever. =)
i wondered what had happened to some of my friends lately. some MIA for no reason, some in emo state, mood swing, some getting troubled over relationships, some just seem to be in their own world and many more which i dunno use what words to describe.
i know there are times when us feel like being alone. not that we are trying to be anti-social to seek attention, but we just wan some times alone to think. many of us tend to keep things to ourselves because we felt that there are things which are better off being left unsaid. and i truly understand that. its not easy to sort out your thoughts in a single night. but i do know that being alone doesnt mean you will be able to solve everything. tell me what are friends for? they are there to lend you a listening ear whenever you needed one. to complain, to console, to listen, to led on, to love, to like, to accompany and etc. friends might not give the best advice but friends share weal and woe together.
i dun feel good seeing my friends being unhappy about things that happened in their lives. everything happens for a reason, but sometimes we are just not sure what are those reasons. so since we dunno the reason, why do we get bother by it? in life, there are many things that are happening everyday for us to see and all these things happened for a reason but we just cant sit down there and think of the reason and left other more important things undone. there are many obstacles that we need to go through since the day we were born till the day we leave this world. whether its family, money, friends, career or relationships related, we can never avoid it. we should learn to face them and challenge them till the end because no one knows what will happen tomorrow, but 1 thing for sure is that, if you never try, you will never know the outcome.
i may not have written in the most perfect english language, but i know if you are my friend and you are reading this now, i'm sure you know what i'm trying to say. last but not least, i wish all my friends to stay happy as before and may Dua Pek Gong bless you people!
good night and sweetest dreams tonight!
PS: dream of me!!! i am the cutest!!! heez =P
had been returning home late for the last few days and having less than 4 hours of sleep almost every night. finally its weekend le! i can have my beauty sleep le. LOL
its a saturday today and i am staying home. in fact i think i had been home for the last few saturdays (if i never remember wrongly), coz my brother did not book out. he is on his field camp now. wondering how he is doing out there.... hmmmm...
anyway, i went chinatown with mum just now. it was really pack with people. we had to squeeze with the crowd and worse of all, everyone was like sweating, and when we brushed through them, we could feel those people's sweaty-ness. yucks! you must be thinking why i will go there right? because my mum wanna go lor... she wanna feel the CNY mood there... so i accompany her loh.. filial daughter hor? LOL
walk around for a while and my mum wanted to buy some nuts which are kinda new this year. from taiwan de... and this seller is so funny with his hair. take a look!
dont you think its so funny meh? LOL oh ya, the nuts are really nice! but rather expensive. mum bought 1kg and it cost her $30. -.-"
after some more walking and squeezing, we decided to hail a cab home.
i thought we had to take a long time to get a cab, so we decided to walk out to the main road earlier. and i saw "millions" of empty cabs waiting at the taxi stand. not a single soul was there to Q for these cabs. can you imagine? cab fare had gone up quite a lot and i think people just wouldnt wanna spend so much on taxi fare i guess. but i am not saying my family is rich ar.. its just that we had this habit of taking cab long time ago. haha! bad habit never dies. LOL
i could have walked even longer at chinatown but my ankle had been giving me problems for the past few days. i dunno whats wrong with my ankle. my health is getting poorer these says. i wonder why... i'm going to see a sinseh tml for my ankle... though i dun remember i sprained it or wat... LOL
these few days had been rather happy. maybe i'm feeling better as day passes by each day. i hope everyone will be the same as me!
good night people and sweet dreams tonight!
its 1.15am now! and i am still awake. cant believe it man!
anyway i had decided on something. but it will be kept within me for a while.
haha!
i think my hands are itchy...
hmmmmm...
mahjong therapy please???? =(
damn damn damn!!!!!!!!!!
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh.! holyshit de !!!
&*$#%*(()#((($%@#I()SD^*I)OR
its going to be 2 weeks before i can see myhandsome brother again. he is going for his outfield this coming friday! for 6 days.. sianz...
i need more mahjong therapy. =)
waking up at 10am when i slept at almost close to 4am the previous night.
finally, my bed frame and mattress had arrived! my watch display is still holding on till end of month.i cant wait for my display to come and place all my watches in it! now my room is furnished with many things i like. its like a dream come true for me. LOL
cleared many stuffs today. wash windows, take down curtains, hang up new ones, clear my unwore clothings, vacuuming and mopping of floor. help mum go jurong point get things for chinese new year.. omg! it's a busy busy day. tml will be a busy day as well. omg! my weekends are burnt because chinese new year is coming! omg!! so fast... 2008 le...
after CNY, i will be looking forward to going Bangkok with my ladies, together with melvin and jason, cindy's bf. wow! can u imagine a big group going shopping together in thailand and i'm sure we will make hell lots of noises there. ahah! FUN FUN FUN!!!
ahhhhhhhhhh. i love my room now sia! i'm going to bed soon! gd night people. pictures of my room will be shown at a later date.
take care peeps!
can you resist the temptation of chocolates?
sure?
very sure? one more time!
no? then i shall have my first bite.
yum yum!!!
dun be sad ya?
this black chocolate from meiji is actually a puzzle. you have to mess it up and put it back into the box again. it looks easy, but actually it's not! i was on MC today and i was pretty bored since i woke up like probably 7am and couldnt get back to sleep again. washed up and walked around in the house, before i settle myself down and started looking at this chocolate bar thingy. and i open it and stare at it for a short while. it looks so damn easy. i think i was over-confident. i mess up the whole thing and tried to put it back. to my surprise! it wasnt that easy at all. F*** loh! i tried and tried. its more worse than the game Sudoku and the Rubik's Cube. i piece up everything and then mess up again coz i just couldnt find the right way and worse, no answer sheet was given! after sitting on my table for almost 2 hours, i finally figured out the right way! hahaha! aint i a smart girl? cant believe i did it in 2 hours! cool hor?
and in order to prove what i said was right. i had a friend to try this puzzle.
this is ceiling my friend. i promise her not to mention her name. =X
haha! she didnt solve the puzzle la. LOL. i wanna give the rest of my friends to try.
ok? heez.
anyway, my room is half done. bed frame and mattress will be "arriving" this coming saturday and i cant wait!
anyway, here are the "preview" of my room "makeover"
swee bo? LOL
when i was back, they surprised me with something.
they wore all my watches on their hands.
the new "aliens VS predator"
-.-"
oh well, maybe or perhaps...
down with fever, flu and sore throat. it sucks to be sick.
but my dear meiyi actually left behind her "bug" and now the "bug" had bitten me while i am sick. damn.
it sucks to be sick!
flu, cough, sore throat all coming together!!!
damn. double damn. triple damn.
its 1am now! and i cant sleep! ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.!!
my manager went hongkong during new year period and she bought us handphone chains. and i chose this for myself.
yes. it's winnie the i was acting busy doing my work in the office today when i saw my colleague holding on to something which looks kinda interesting to me. so i took a few pics of it for you all to see.
can you see my reflection on it? haha! cool hor? actually i dunno what these 3 ball-lookalike are. i only know its for air-vent head dunno which part on vessel de. find it damn cute, so i took them from the box and took pictures of it. haha!
and i took a pic of my saturday work schedule time table! please check it, before u date me out. LOL
regarding my previous post, about quitting my job. i was bullshitting being emo only. it was a rush decision i made. i am still happy with my job and i am learning a lot of new things everyday. and i have got many nice colleagues around only when they dun stab me at my back. =)
actually i think i am randomly blogging right now. haha. got no sequence with all my posts.
my room got no bed now! this is how my room looks like now.
yep. my room consists of only mahjong table and those chairs around. haha! my bed frame and bed will only be delivered on the 19th! one more week to go!!! i cant wait.. especially my watch display... its really cool you know? but that one will have to wait till end of month then i will get it! ahhhhh. and also this sunday, the guys are coming over to help me drill my shelves that i bought from ikea. i cant wait to see my room "new image". haha
anyway, i spent again. thai book again!
i dunno why. but i'm really fasinated with Thai culture. i may not know all about Thai stuff but i would really like to find out more. anyone care to tell me more?
actually this book was meant for a friend of mine. but i think he has his own already, so i decided to keep it for myself and i'm learning! trust me! this coming march Bangkok trip, i will make sure i can understand slightly better than the trip i went the other time in Nov 2007. i must master it! seriously, no influence from anyone. its just my interest. =)
past few entries was so horrible that i even laughed at myself for posting such entries. i'm not going to delete them coz i know one day i will look back at these entries and laughed at myself for being so childish.
what's all these that i'm going through now being compared with what i had gone through almost-2-years ago? it's just merely a setback that i have to go through during this phase in my life. the toughest time has been over, nothing can be compared to that. its true that i should learn how to handle my emotions well then i will be able to see the situation clearly. i will be stronger than before and i had promised a friend that. she is waiting to see a brand new me and i will not disappoint her. i believe in myself and all my friends will surely believe in me too, right?
i promise there will no more sad posts in my blog. or emo entries. really! only happy and angry entries! haha... venting anger is not a crime hor?
i'm still the bubbly and cheerful cuteFenz everyone knows.
i will work hard.
=)
this had been a long entry. can cover for about 1 week ba? LOL
enjoy reading my poor english because i cant concentrate while i was typing this entry. i was watching tv and talking to my mother at the same time. so pardon me please. and please tag!!! my tagboard is so boring!
last but not least,
he is booking out this saturday! i think my brother had grown up a lot even though its just about 1 month in the army. i know i can feel the change in him and i am glad he is changing for the better. really happy. hope these 2 years will go on smoothly for him. =)
and also his A levels results, he will do well and get a course which he wants in university.
=)
i hope things will turn up fine for me.
time is all i need. =)
if it's me, why not say it straight in front of my face?
does treating me coldly will do any of us good?
i had given up on myself since yesterday. believe it a not. i really did.
next is, i wanna quit my job already.
i'm very sad. who bother asking me what happen?
only my GOOD friends asked. those who admitted they are good friends in the first place, did they even care and bother? NO! FUCKING HELL 1 word "NO". (i'm not saying my ladies here. =) )
i hate to see myself in this way. i need a long time to brace myself up again. only god knows when.
i will never trust anyone again.
then when a guy goes fucking other girls when he is attached, what does he consider as?
bastard? horny bastard? fucking bastard?
a failed relationship gradually makes you stronger and the next guy will be a better one! =)
smoke smoke smoke!
sometimes at some point of time, i really do feel like breaking down. but i found out that, i couldnt afford any tears from myself at all.
the feeling of being aimless is back in me again. LOL. probably post-PMS symdromes.
nobody can actually knows how i feel inside.
i feel like giving up already. =)
i will stay away.
money. i need lots of money.
There's no place more warmer and comfortable than home.
papa's birthday coming soon! =)
i know nowadays we hardly meet up to gossip or have a decent meal together just me and you but you should know i'm always just a phone away from you. i dun like to see you having problems with your relationship. i know its not easy. but all relationships will reach a stage where all your or your partner's flaws will appear. we can never stay loving forever. relationships will definitely have arguements, qaurrels, tears, happiness and lots of others stuff which we can think of. i know u are trying hard to get his attention but do remember that, guys cant always give their best to us and yet receive nothing from us they do need lots of care and concern from us too. they too wanna be doted on too. i can see you are being really pampered by him, but bear in mind, he wanna be pampered too. by getting to know his problems doesnt mean u will help him lessen his burden or what, sometimes guys just dun wanna share with us their problems not because they think we can do nothing to help them, just that they dun wan us to worry together with him. and dun ever think that you are burden to him. you are his girlfriend, and of cos you will be worried for him. but seeing him stressful, you should be more understanding. treats him better, bring him out for a good meal, catch a nice movie or maybe stroll along the beach and have a nice chat to get to know each other even better. its something a normal couple should be doing. i'm sure you are smart enough to know what i am saying. i wish you all the best in handling this relationship. and i hope i do give u some advice which are helpful in a way. LOL i'm not expert but i think i been thru slightly more than most of my peers thats all. i'm not that mature, and there are times i got my own problems too as well. i dun sort my thinking out at once, i will put on a black face and making a scene for myself, worrying this and that and causing everyone to worry for me, and then i will slowly talk to my friends about it and often, their advice for me works! maybe i too need attention from everyone. haha! oh well, anyway, i think now u should roughly know what to do le ba. i wish you good luck ya? and always remember hor, i got a phone with me! not pager, (not like you.) haha!
cheers,
Fenz
something's not right.
going to change my bed in another 2 weeks' time. so cool. from queen size bed to super single. in order to save more space in my room. and mummy had this small side table especially made for me to display all my watches! LOL. thanks mummy! you love me best!
and i'm going to get the shelves from ikea real soon. wanted to get it today but suddenly we had a change of mind, wanted to get a new table for me but then again, my study desk is still quite new so we dropped the idea and decided to get the shelves instead. i need helper to help me do the shelf! ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. who who who????
your body pressing against mine...
i could hear your breathing so close to me...
our eyes met for the first time...
=) just a casual paragraph above. coz
exam ok. not much to say. just a pass will do me fine.
i haven sleep a wink since last night. was "struggling" hard around mahjong table with my friends. damn.
horrible me.
gd nite all!
i think i didnt start off with the new year well but still, during the eve of new year, i had my fun with my gers, sista, jie mei and susu.
what do you get when a group of people gets together?
gamble lor.. what else?
its just what my friends had said, "more gambling time!" haha.
the "reunion" dinner at cindy's place was great. lots of food. i mean really a lot of food. my stomach became very bloated after the dinner and we still can sit down for 1 "pork" of mahjong. power right? i cant imagine myself in the future if i continue to eat, sit, mahjong, rot all the way like this. haha! but who cares? as long as i am happy can le. =)
believe it or not, i am very moody these days. really! dun try stepping on my tail. i will bite!
i had started using the organiser emily gave me. hmmm. been a while i did that. hope it will last la hor? LOL
debts cleared but more debts coming in. damn.
ahhhh. i took leave today to study for tml's paper. read thru the notes in the morning but nothing gets into my brain. sucks. but i will still work hard for my paper. i'm not going to hand in another blank sheet of paper again. i know i will regret if i do that. =)
i wanna prove everyone that i can do it well if i put in effort. like i said for my NY resolution, i cannot be lazy anymore.
=)
hongfei is leaving spore @ 1615 later to America. he told me the flight will last for 18 hours. awwwwww.. so envy him. after he is back from US, he will be heading off to Germany. ahhh! he always got the luck. uncle! take care wor! miss ya!
oh! i forgot to mention something...
but somehow in a way, i forgotten when i wanna write about le..LOL
我是自私的。我重来不为别人的感受着想。
可是这就是我，我只在乎自己的立场。
我只能在这里说声“对不起”。
