finally. its changed. locked it earlier on. as i fell asleep the other day.

simple.

my style.

i always thought being busy was a good thing. to show people how much time you are spending at work and people will praise you for being hardworking.

only till now i realised, being busy is not as what i had expected to be. i had lesser time for my family, let alone friends. besides my colleagues, i dun remember meeting up much with my friends lately. imagine what time when i finish work? take today for an example, i knocked off at 12.30am. since when i had worked till this hour? think never before.

my working hours are so inflexible that i haven been sleeping well. i look restless and tired. but i still have many things on hand that i need to do. Will i be able to make it till the end? or will i just give up halfway and be back to square one again?

i have no confidence in myself at all.



i know you people miss me. i shall post a pic of myself then. =P


I'm still as cute as before. MUACKS

my bed reckons.

been a while since i last updated. hurhurhur (this has been my starting phrase)

finally after a month of working, i managed to see the dawn today. i reached home at 5.45pm =) isnt it cool to be home early?

so tired one leh... i'm another idiot who agreed to play badminton at 9am in the morning when it was raining and i could have the chance to sleep in a little more longer

what have i done recently leh?

- attended michelle's 21st birthday on 21.09.2008 (hope she had enjoyed herself a lot)
- went out with some pals on 19.09.2008 for chilling out session (which i kept quiet most of the time)
- played hell lots of badminton which i didnt run most of the time (in fact, i came across a cute guy. really cute de)
- bought a 2nd hand Gucci Sling Bag
- knew a guy from somewhere and happened to know he is a B**T**D (this world is full of such ppl)
- purchased a Nokia E71 which is my current love now =D~
- having late nights everyday which caused me to look very tired and restless
- came to know true friendship isnt easy to come by
- learnt a lot of "things" in life
- happy to know that there are actually people out there who appreciate my presence
- i'm spending my free days or should i say free time more with my mum
- smsed him and glad to know he is attached with another new girl now
- learning to be a fast learner and more hardworking
- haven been mahjong-ing much
- sex is a form to destress yet i haven found anyone who can allow me to do so (this is craps =X)


a short update about what i had been busy-ing with now. in case some of you will think i'm behaving so secretive again. LOL

time for bed peeps! good night!

stay tune hor? =P



editted***

who the fuck are you to slap my brother when i had never even lay my hands on him? you this mother fucker, seriously dun let me see you! otherwise i make sure u drop dead in front of me!!!
KNNBCCB!!! mother fucker bastard jerk assholes. CHAO CHEE BYE!!!
TMD! KNN!!! argggghhhhhhhh! i am fucking pissed off!!!!

have you ever been asked before what you want in life?

i was dumbfounded when i was being questioned about this.

i'm not tired about my job. maybe not now. i'm still learning a lot of things yet i am slow in doing so. i feel sucky when i feel that i dunno anything much.

i know what i wanna achieve and yet i dunno how to tell people that. its not i dunno, but thats me. i'm expressionless. when i keep quiet, it doesnt mean i dun care or doesnt understand, i'm just thinking to myself.

which person doesnt wanna be successful? who doesnt wanna make it to the top?

at times i feel that i'm so lousy when being compared to others.

ahhhhhhhhhhhhh. i dun feel good. really. =(

You Are 59% Sexy

Your Sex Appeal Is: High You're quite sexy, and you're probably at least partially aware of your powers. Don't let your self doubt ever get the best of you. You're even more attractive than you know.

i always thought people with strong friendship bonds around me makes me envious and jealous of them.

only till recently then i realised friendship can reveal its true colours just within months. to be frank, i was really disappointed when i was told about it. it make me realised how fragile a friendship bond can be.

you wanted to prove to people that friends can work well and succeed together, you wanted to prove everyone wrong. what about now? the current situation? have things gone the way you want it to be in the first place? nobody can learn to run before learning how to walk. who on earth in this world dun wanna be successful? i also wanna be one. but can i just jump as and when i like? if can, will i still be aimless before i find my current job? the answer is no.

what have you done now? within short notice, your mindset, your decisions had changed completely. have you spared a thought for your other mates? how disappointed they were? even i'm just an outsider, i can sense the disappointment.

oh well, its just my 2 cents thoughts after all.

in fact this post has nothing much different from any other posts i had always been typing about.

job-hopping here and there, and now i'm in a new environment, with new colleagues and of cos, a new start. this time i can say i'm into something which i had always had an interest in. i got no certified qualifications and neither have i gotten the talent in it, but i am glad i was given this chance. i certainly hope this time, i will not disappoint anyone around me and also giving myself a chance to work hard and succeed in the area which i wanna be since young.

new office is still under renovation and i'm everywhere everyday. singapore and malaysia. my boss told me we had to travel to JB very often, so i have to have my passport with me all the time. i'm learning from the scratch. i hope i will be from a nothing to a something after sometime. i'm not aiming way too high up, but i hope my efforts will be recognised somehow someday.

i haven been sleeping well these days. late nights and waking up way too early than i always do. *yawns* i'm so tired.

having lots of funny thoughts lately. no idea why too. *sighs*

had a game of badminton before i started work this morning. who the hell so stupid go agree to play badmintn with boss in a rainy morning when its so cooling to sleep in?

and this stupid person is Fenz.

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