=D




you will know why soon... act blur... LOL

i cleaned my room yesterday. cool. now my room is neat and tidy.



and i threw away some of my watches collection.

heartpain but its ok.



=)



i had a nice day today!

firstly, i would like to wish everyone a belated merry christmas.
how's christmas for everyone? enjoyed yourselves?

as for me, it was an experience for me. why? because on the eve of christmas, all my friends and myself were drenched at west coast park and our BBQ session had to be cancelled due to the heavy rain. no place, no pit, we decided to head off to my place instead. haha! i guess the chef of the night was very good! he managed to fried the chicken wings and potatoes and not to forget, my gers toasted the satay and the otah too! cool! as for me, i just be "supervisor" loh.. haha

just a short update here. i will post pictures soon~~~

I did a minor change to my blogskin.



Simple yet colourful. This is how i feel about my life now.



Having "children talk" with the kids at my workplace really makes me wonder what motherhood life is all about. Children are really so adorable that I really can't bring myself to scold them. I dunno if this is part of me or simply because this is my rice bowl. I dun remember since when i have gotten so much patience and tolerance towards rowdy kids, or rather i should say, noisy kids.



I had never enjoyed myself so much at work before that i can work so hard towards my dream, no matter how little sleep i get every night. in fact, the thoughts of going to work makes me really happy. probably all of you must be thinking huifen must be mad already but seriously, this is how much i love my job even though its just a few months since i started this job. i know its a little too early to say this, but i can foresee myself working long in this line.



being in love with a job has its pros and cons. I had lesser time for my family, my friends and myself. yet i gain more knowledge at work everyday. i believe these scarifices will lead me somewhere higher in the near future. haha!



i realised i had been talking about my work almost in all entries. i think i should update things about myself especially to my friends who haven been seeing me often.



life for me had been just morning wake up, go work, reach home and sleep. and also grow fat. why? i had gained 8kg in these 3 months. isnt this an amazing news? haha! every now and then, i will try to meet up my friends late at night (yes, really late) because of my irregular working hours. met many new people and did many funny things. nothing serious of cos.



i'm definitely still single and available at this moment. but the thought of getting attached is not the first thing on my mind yet. i am still young and perhaps to enjoy the blissfullness of being in love will only come by after my work had been stablised =) dating is in the trend now. so like what Billy (my DA GE) had said, enjoy the process of dating. no holding of hands, no kissing, no sex, just date. and i'm listening to him. indeed it is a great feeling. i'm not a beauty myself and neither am i a choosy person. the right one will appear when i least expected it. am i right to say this?



oh well, been a long update i guess. shall i post a pic of myself then? hahaha!

as usual, i am never serious when it comes to taking pictures. haha! my boss said i look like a "butch". do i really look like one?

even if so, i know i still love men. *drools*

adios.

PS: i totally forgotten about CNY coming soon in like a month's time.

PPS: i cant remember when was the last time i saw all my good friends.

PPPS: my ladies, its time to party on xmas eve! muacks!

irresponsible faggot!

i'm a little lazy today so here i am at home blogging before i head off for work.

yesterday was my first time leading a group of kids as my team for my workplace holiday camp. the feeling was amazing, cheering with them, disturbing the other team together, the spirit was indeed very "high" and fun... and i really did have fun. it was just the first day and i bet the next 2 days are going to be even more fun and exciting.

pictures can be viewed from my facebook. i only uploaded nice and glamous pictures. those unglam pics, i will save it for my self viewing. hahahahahaha

anyway, i had so much to blog about, but i dunno where to start and how to start.

had severe food poisoning few days (which was what the doc had told me) -___-" but i wasnt given an MC, in the end i had to request MC myself.. wth??!! if you said i had severe food poisoning, why dont u give me MC or an injection to stop my waste from coming out further? what kind of lousy doctor do you belong to? you are the worst man!

damn.

enough of my whining. i better get my butt out of my house and head to work.

i miss my friends, i miss the dinner outings, i miss my close friends. =((

how would you feel if you have to issue a warning letter for the first time with your name signing off?

the answer is: scary.

and yes i did, i issued my first warning letter out to someone in my office. i had to do it even though i really dont feel good about it. it was the toughest letter i ever tried to type it out. what can i say? probably that person just deserved it and i was merely following the instructions given by my boss.

i cried at work again. i know i'm such a disappointment. i wish i can fasten my pace. what can i do to improve? i can feel the weight on my shoulder now... =(

its not easy to be in command and i seriously think i need to improve a lot on this.

is it my problem for "her" not to listen to me, or plainly its just "her" who thinks she is better than me in all ways, and therefore she does not listen to me?

but to be frank, i think i am much more better than her in all ways at work. i'm not saying i am the best but i know i had improved a lot on my attitude towards a job. and for this, i rewarded myself with a newly bought "disneyland mickeymouse" watch. =D

anyway to end this short update, she will be asked to leave soon. and last but not least, PLEASE STOP GIVING ME YOUR FARKING ATTITUDE!
and also stop "bombing" me with things about your boyfriend, i'm not interested to know at all. thanks.

a kiss doesn't mean anything.

due to my laziness in the morning, i crashed my glasses.

dont ask me why.

i'm basically just so dumb.

LOL

now i am blind because contact lens makes me uncomfortable that i took them out.

i was having a coffee session with some pals after dinner few nights ago and i came upon to know some "gossips". it is really amazing that how some people behave when it comes to the term "relationship".



i am not saying i am an expert in this area but i do believe that whatever i had gone through before, makes me a better person now.



there is something which i do not quite understand at all. how could anyone develop the same feelings towards 2 different persons at the same time? do you have such a big heart for the 2 persons? how would you know if you like this person more or love that person less?

love? or lust?

what makes you goes sleeping with somone you really like yet both of you will never work out? what difference does it makes being compared to other girls who sleep around endlessly?

there are really so much more questions and stuff that i wanna blog down here but i had decided to hold back.

can anyone enlighten me please?

one worry down, another one is on the way. when will i be ready to manage my own team? what can i do to improve myself fast in order not to disappoint my boss? i know i had tried hard enough. i feel that i had changed so much that even myself could feel it. but why is it that my boss is still not happy? many times, i really feel like breaking down and cry but there is no tears. i really want to do something and prove it to other people Huifen is capable. but how? i am really getting very tired and restless these days, i cannot give up now after so much effort i had put in. sighhh...

if only.................................